New Year Resolution

I've stopped keeping a list of resolution because seriously, NOTHING WORKS FOR A LAZY ME. Nothing can motivate me to move an inch. Not even a naggy boyfriend. But because I am turning 24 #gasps the horror, I need to be serious for JUST ONE TIME. And I know how this blogpost will come biting me in the buttock when Daniel reads it.

So resolution for 2012.

1. to actually remember to do my devotion daily.

2. Buy less, earn more.

3. Be serious and persistent in what I am doing be it my small business or my studies.

4. Be less critical about things around me, especially about what he does which ticks me off.

5. Cook more, bake more, sew more, read more.

6. Be grateful each an every day for God's providence.

7. Try to exercise. =P Daniel will push me nevertheless.

8. Be more positive and confident in life.


I think 8 is enough lest I get poked for every single thing I do. Now, I really should get some of my stuff done. =)

You keep learning each day

I learnt that not everyone is going to be nice to you, swallow it and move on.

I learnt that though some people may be nice to you in front of you, they might be talking behind you. Swallow it, move on.

I learnt that everyone has their own secret weapon and never underestimate other people.

I learnt that there are bound to be many advices (if you are lucky). Choose wisely and do not follow blindly.

I learnt that people will use all their effort to make you think like they do. But what matters is, what does He think? It is okay to say no to people and move the other direction if He told you to.

I learnt that life is an on-going learning process and you don't stop learning.

It's okay to not know now. But learn so you know it tomorrow.

Holiday starts

And it rains this morning. On the first day of my holiday. How lovely is that?

However, there's a few note to self that I must remember.

Do not be lazy.
Do not eat so much.
Do not sleep so much.
Do not sit in front of laptop whole day.
Get a healthy life since I move less at home.

Pray hard that I don't gain back the weight I painstakely lost the past few weeks. Ok la, not exactly painstakely la since I come back every week and got amazed that I lost some weight. But still, it's so much easier to put back on all the weight that losing it.

Note to self, when I start working, I MUST JOIN GYM.

First week will be spent finishing up my work so that the second week of holiday I can spend it hanging out with friends. *tap fingers on the table* Waiting for someone to come back. =) You know who you are so get your butt back soon or we'll go out without you! No la, tak sampai hati. Heh, we think of you 24/7 okay? Excited with plans so win, come back quick.

It's back

Do not trust me to go to the market (or anywhere at all) without coming back with something.

I thought I killed those shopping bugs but they are still lingering around, waiting for the right time to reappear.

T_T I bought clothes in Tesco, I bought shoes in the market. Seriously, I can buy wherever I go.

Need to stop this or I will have to find a job. Or get a rich husband. I think the former is easier.

Gonna label it as things I should remember lest I forget. One day, if I'm like super poor or something, I'm gonna look back at this and say, "Serve you right Ping!!".

But I love my shoe. /shy. *wave to shoe*

Mask down

I'm stressed and scared. I think I've subject myself too much to people's opinions and criticisms. I know all that matters is God but it's so hard to not be bothered of what people will think. Or if it's not good enough, what will people think? Will people think I'm not prepared? Will people think I did not put my best?

Wait a minute. Count the number of times I mention the word 'people' and the number of times I mention 'God'. I need to get myself together and pray that God will guide me to plan this. It's supposed to be a fun outing where we gather God's people together and welcome them to our PKA family but now it's stressing me out. Am I losing the point here?

I don't know. =( All I know is that I don't enjoy it as much now. Need to find back my purpose of doing all these.

Mask up again. It's tiring but it's easier.

Things we totally should remember

I think with uni assignments, commitments and all, there are times we felt so pushed to our limits, so suffocated with things in life, we tend to forget what's important in life. And I believe this is what we should keep in mind at all times. I'm sure with this, we'll be able to cope with uni assignments better, cope with people around us better, whine less and be grateful each day. =) Copied from Shan's blog.

The Daily Survival Kit

1. Toothpick

To remind you to pick the good qualities in everyone including yourself .

(Like totally!!! It helps you to feel good about yourself and make people feel good about themselves which is super important.)

2. Rubber band

To remind you to be flexible. Things might not always go the way you want, but it can be worked out.

(Come on, life is too short to be petty over small things and be too particular.)

3. Band-Aid

To remind you to heal hurt feelings, either yours or someone else's.

(love)

4. Eraser

To remind you everyone makes mistakes. That's okay we learn by our errors.

5. Candy Kiss

To remind you everyone needs a hug or a compliment everyday.

(*hugs*)

6. Mint

To remind you that you are worth a mint to someone known or unknown.

7. Bubble Gum

To remind you to stick with it and you can accomplish anything.

8. Pencil

To remind you to list your blessings everyday.

(grabs a pencil)

9. Tea Bag

To remind you to take time to relax daily and go over that list of God's blessings.

(Above all, thank Him for each and every day for He made them all possible for you)

10. It's ok to make goofy faces if it makes you happy.

(I add one. Cause I feel happy when I make goofy face)

Lecturers on Facebook

stress me much.

My Spanish sir is always on facebook so I need to remind myself to be careful of what I post on my status. Else he'll be talking about it in class. T__T wtcrap?! He asked if I am someone who is easily stressed and I say sometimes, then he say ya, he knows. I've said so online. The last time was when I was complaining about my recording assignment.

Must.be.careful.with.what.I.write.

Oh and there's super a lot of mosquitoes in my room that it seems to be more THEIR room than mine. wtcrap. Serious. Biting me like nobody's business, having a feast on my blood and all. Nonsense la, I need that electric thing to zap them all DEAD. Die you die!!!!!!!

*scratch scratch scratch*

Review of 2009 resolution and resolution for 2010

Review on 2009's resolution, again, probably half of it achieved only. I'm more socialable now, I talk more now, I got more friends from my course. I think I am no less grumpy or sensitive, I still continue my Operasi Budget Bawah RM5 but I seriously did not get better results. Phew, finish. =P

I think I'm gonna make a more realistic one this year-like what I say every year then when I don't achieve it, I feel it's not realistic enough. =P

1. Lose some freaking weight. I know, I'm typing this while eating my bread. Breakfast la~

2. Improve my freaking grades. Seriously, need some concentration.

3. Socialize more and fellowship more with my friends. There's more to life and uni than assignments and exams. Had a good start on this. Let's hope I maintain.

4. Be a better senior and try to make new junior friends. To stay young at heart. =P

5. Keep my close friends close. It is so important because they are the ones who shaped me and people I love dearly.

6. Take effort to be more caring, understanding and approachable. And also put in effort to approach people that I usually won't because I just want to stay in my comfort zone.

7. Un-boring my life by not hiding in the room all the time. I realized I did not see much of the first year juniors (any first years) around because I was in my room way too much.

8. Read bible more consistently and work on my spiritual life with Him.

9. Blog more often and make my blog alive again.

10. Be more generous to give people my time, maybe some money, and also whatever I can offer.

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010!!!

May your year have a good start and be fruitful throughout.

May this year be better than last.

Let the awesome year ahead come into your life now. =)))

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I don't know why but as years go by, everything seems to lose its excitements, its fun, its meaning. I've began to feel numb of things around me. Somehow, it's not the same anymore. I think I should go to bed earlier. Night world.

I iz not doing very well

Now I am a bit worried. Ha-ha. Finally, I am worried. Cause I cannot write 17 pages for my assignment and I was hoping that I can finish it tonight so that I can go for my CG tomorrow night and then finish up with my another assignment on Thursday.



Seems like it is not happening. So I'll skip tomorrow's CG to get my work done. =))



Initially I can finish it on time but somehow I found out that the other assignment is not as easy as I thought it is. So I will have to spend more time doing it and so, I have to finish up this assignment latest tomorrow. Hopefully I can start with the other one tomorrow night as I need to hand in on Friday.



Lastly, LAST MINUTE WORK, DOESN'T WORK!!!

Is this a good end? Will there be a good beginning?

I am not sure whether I wrote this because I really want to reflect on my life and make new resolution or just to conform to everyone else cause everyone is writing it. I have written one on reflecting on my life on 2008 some time ago. I guess there's just very few things to add.

1. I am beginning to love my classes and my coursemates more now. I don't know but I guess I finally feel that I belong I guess. =P

2. I still loves my high school friends cause each time I laugh when I'm with them, it's a sincere one and I think that is very important.

The rest I think I did an okay job in wrapping them up in my previous post.

I think I better go on with my resolution. I will make realistic ones cause I never used to fulfil my resolution. Not even once as far as I can remember.

So let's make 2009 a great one. Yes? No? Time will tell.

Well, I hope that
1. I can control my grumpiness and anger. I guess it's time to grow up and love everyone around me more. Although I regret everytime I am grumpy, it's still not right to do that.

2. I can stand up to myself for once. If someone cheated me, I should be able to stand up to myself and claim my own rights.

3. I will grow more in Jesus and be more complete spiritually. He has answered many of my questions since I was a small child. I know He is with me at all times but sometimes I ought to forget to thank Him (especially during meals).

4. I can read the Bible. I have not officially read the bible in a whole and I hope I can do it in 2009! I think I should set a time in a day for Bible reading or something.

5. I can social more. I know I have the 'talkative' sign stamped on my forehead since young but ever since I enter USM, I guess things changed. Sometimes I chose not to talk as I am afraid I will say something silly (which I always do) and I guess I have began to be anti-social.

6. I can continue my Operasi Budget Bawah RM5 as that was the time I lost most weight and save most money. One stone kill two birds. =)

7. I will be healthy and has less tummy uncomfort. It's getting annoying that I feel it all the time now.

8. I can be more open and less sensitive. I think this is stamped on my forehead alongside my 'talkative' symbol. I have been overly sensitive since I was born or something and most of my high school friends have at least once commented on it. Well, I get more upset after listening to it. =P Of course I will be sensitive when I am talking about other people. That is tactful darling.

9. I can study harder and hopefully get a better result cause competition is so sengit nowadays. Either you are with them, or away from them and I think it's important to be alongside to those who are high up cause I don't want to be jobless. The ambition to be 'siu lai lai' is more impossible than to score good result. That's how sucky my love life is. =P

Let's just make 9 resolution to receive the arrival of 2009.

Cheers friends. Life can be better. =) *I AM CORNY LIKE THAT!*

There is no free lunch this world.

This is to remind everyone and myself *shy* that there's no free lunch in this world. I tell you, even if people say oi, free lunch go makan, DON'T JOIN!!!! Ok la, must judge according to what your heart says la. XD

The thing is, I jumped on every opportunity for free food and landed myself in H06, a hostel building that has been empty since beginning of the year I think. With dirty rooms, noise from the fan, dirty bed and pillows *which smells like shit too* (figuratively la, not SHIT smell), and freaking creepy toilet. What la? I had to overnight there to accompany some participants from other school.

I tell you, UNLESS you are sure you got them the best rooms ever in the universe, don't ever ever get involve in taking charge of the accommodation. I think there's like thousands of bed bugs lor. Or I allergic to the bed lor. I slept on it and got itch all over. Thank god once I got back at 7am this morning, not having much sleep the night before, I was able to sleep on my own bed. I really really think Desasiswa Fajar Harapan F25/312A has the best bed now. I don't even mind Suetli's toilet is so freaking huge and cleaner cause once you've been to the worst, you'll appreciate anything you have.

That freaking toilet door in H06 closes on its own lor. Scare the shit out of me. I ran back to the room and hid. Why I so chicken like that? T.T Anyway, although I was given free lunch and free dinner, I suffered last night. Boo to free lunch and bed bugs.


The writer decided to stop herself from jumping in excitement or having people see her with her eyes lit up whenever people say there's FREE stuff.








ok. Maybe not. wtf

He loves each and every one of us.

How can I forget that? How can I forget that He picked us, write down our story, plan everything for us and He remembers us by name. Who actually take his time to really know us? He knows us, He create us, and He saved us. Am I even worth it?

I was watching this movie called Pay It Forward and it's really inspiring. How many of us actually go all out really helping a stranger, regardless of whether they worth it or not? It's not just showing them way but really helping them. With heart. We cannot plan it, we can only do it with heart and we cannot make them do it. We can only hope that they want to do it because their heart wants them to.

At some point in the movie, I thought to myself, how many times have I thought 'Why should I help you?' That selfish sinful thought. How many times have I rejected to help someone because she was selfish to me? He did not ask himself 'Why should He help me?' I did bad things, I am sinful, but He gave up His life for me.

This will take a lot of hard work but He will be with me. I'll just have to get it started. Thank you for that lovely movie, Pay It Forward.

Me time

I need a Me time. I always need a Me time. And it’s not hard to get a Me time in my family. In fact I got it all the time. I decided not to go out with the rest for dinner. It is not that I am being such a weirdo who rather sits in the room to eat her tom yum Maggie (though it is rather weird la like nerd like that.) I just having so much inside me that got me feeling suffocated that I just want to sit in my room, sigh as heavily as I can, and just be ME. Emo or not, it’s me.


I think I am a person who tries to seek for attention a lot. It’s like I often hope when people say Ok, it means Ok but I got surprise for you and they will appear on your doorstep with small things that touches your heart. I know, too much movie huh? It’s not going to happen in the real world. Ok means ok and sure means sure with no hidden meaning or other ending. I’m not being pessimistic, I’m just being realistic and yes, reality hurts.


I needed to blog so much but the horrible connection is killing me so I actually had to type it on Microsoft words and then paste. The noodle is not getting any softer. Unfortunately huh? Hard rock noodle is what I’m going to have. I am still feeling very tired with burdens on my shoulder. Hopefully when HBT100’s assignment is done, I can be the happy me instead of the emo me. I am not as strong as I try to portray. =(( Sad truth that is.


The noodle is not that good but the soup is superb. I am drinking mushroom soup. This tells that no, you DON’T buy TESCO’s soup. You buy Campbell’s. =)) A good dinner indeed. I am now a happy girl cause I found someone to talked to. Ok la, I talked and He just listened and kept quite. Just sat there patiently and listened. I love Him. He doesn’t question!! Thank you Lord.

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Oh oh, I remembered a surprise that caught me speechless. That's when Emmoes came to my house to visit me when I was sick. I never expected it and well, I never let anyone to my house cause it's horrible. I was touched and I really really was speechless, embarrassed at that time but real thankful to God for sending me angels like you girls.

And also, Wei Wei is a blessing in disguise in USM. Without her, I think I'll be even more lost and really, I appreciate all this. I will never forget how Wei Wei brought me to library and selamba-ly brought me to find books for my first assignment, HBT 100. Then she always lends me her books (not boobs, FLAT OLEN), and she is really a blessing in disguise though she is a pain in the arse. XD