The World Through My Eyes

New Year Resolution

2011-12-28T12:05:00.000+08:00

I've stopped keeping a list of resolution because seriously, NOTHING WORKS FOR A LAZY ME. Nothing can motivate me to move an inch. Not even a naggy boyfriend. But because I am turning 24 #gasps the horror, I need to be serious for JUST ONE TIME. And I know how this blogpost will come biting me in the buttock when Daniel reads it.

So resolution for 2012.

1. to actually remember to do my devotion daily.

2. Buy less, earn more.

3. Be serious and persistent in what I am doing be it my small business or my studies.

4. Be less critical about things around me, especially about what he does which ticks me off.

5. Cook more, bake more, sew more, read more.

6. Be grateful each an every day for God's providence.

7. Try to exercise. =P Daniel will push me nevertheless.

8. Be more positive and confident in life.

I think 8 is enough lest I get poked for every single thing I do. Now, I really should get some of my stuff done. =)

Lesson Learnt

2011-12-28T11:59:00.000+08:00

Do not provoke a busy man.

Do not watch Nasi Lemak 2.0 at night (you will end up googling for the nearest nasi lemak stall.)

Do not buy too many things and then got lazy to do any of it.

/crawls to get some craft done. #lazy

SINGING AT 12.30AM BESTEST

2011-12-18T00:24:00.000+08:00

Singing to BSB songs because I told Daniel to play songs I know how to sing. De-stress. Assignment due date coming, still not motivated and clueless. T_T

FEW MORE DAYS!!!

Hotel Naza Y YOU NO?

2011-12-16T22:35:00.004+08:00

If someone request to be removed from your mailing list, do you email that person and ask why?

Well, I'll tell you why. YOUR FOOD SUCKS!!!

I was complaining that night when I had your so-called 'Grilled and BBQ Buffet' with my RM24.90 Mydeal/Groupon (can't remember, they both had it) voucher. AND IT SUCKS! It sucks even more than the Haven Delight one that I went (this deserve another post altogether but the story was, the ones we ordered, did not come, the ones that came already, came a few times more. Service is darn messy.)

So I was okay about it already because I don't usually file complaints or say much. I usually whine and grumble on my own. I know, damn chicken. But then, I got pissed (yep, Ping Ping just got pissed) and I sent this email to that person like a boss.

Hi,
I didn't want to give any feedback before this but there has been several emails sent to me promoting the buffet. I bought a Groupon voucher some time back and finally went for the buffet at your hotel on the 10th of December which was last Saturday. The was not much variety of food offered but I didn't mind. I was shocked to find out that there's no bread offered with the soup. But that's beside the point. The service given was excellent and the view was breathtaking but that's about it. The ready-cooked food offered was just 5 or 6 dishes, 3 out of which was bad. The butter rice has no butter taste in it, the mutton and the beef was practically tasteless and cold. I am the least picky about food but this was enough to turn me off. The hash brown was nice though.
Then I moved to the 'grilled corner' with just 4 grilled items offered (and it was supposed to be grilled and bbq buffet or something). It was okay although I did not have much appetite to continue. I moved to the dessert corner and found only two types of malay kuih and two types of cakes with other fruits. So I took a little of each. To my disappointment, the seri muka (which is my all time favourite) was tasteless. The glutinous rice was JUST glutinous rice. No taste to it. The fruits and cakes were okay. The ice-cream was awesome!!
So at the end of the day, my verdict was, only the fruits, cakes, ice-cream and hash brown were really edible. And to think that this buffet initially cost about RM50 and I bought it for RM25, I still feel cheated. Initially I thought I shouldn't expect too much since it's a groupon voucher that I was using but no, that thought is wrong. Even though I only paid RM25 for something that cost RM49.90, I should be served food with RM49.90 cause this is a promotion. I hope this feedback will help your hotel to improve.

See, I even ended it with a good note. /damn proud. And the email on the promotion of the buffet kept coming. So I emailed that lady, requesting to be removed from the mailing list. She replied asking me why I would want to be removed. T_T Your food sucks and YOU'VE BEEN SENDING ME THE SAME EMAIL FOR 5 4 TIMES AT LEAST. I marked as SPAM and did not reply.

Force people to rant it here one.

ps: Decided to forward the email.

Start again

2011-12-16T11:39:00.000+08:00

It's so hard to start again after I stop. Doing my assignment that is. Starting a brand new day doing assignment IS HARD...For me. I need the momentum.

FEW MORE DAYS TO FREEDOM!! Can't smell it yet. But it's coming.

Bad time

2011-12-15T15:46:00.000+08:00

The worst time to lau sai when you have assignment due next Tuesday and you are just doing the second part. -.-

But it's okay. All cleared now (my bowels, not my assignment). Can even eat Tau Hua like a boss.

I can haz Ipad2 for Christmas

2011-12-13T20:44:00.000+08:00

This comes a little late but I am in denial, and looking for all ways possible to not do my assignment though I know I'm digging my own grave.

Daniel Chong bought me Ipad 2 for Christmas!!! That bugger who is always so ~~stingy~~ thrifty I mean, forked out over RM1.7k to buy something for me. He is always so thrifty when it comes to spending on himself but splurge all for me which makes me feel very bad cause I splurge more on myself than on him.

We have been filling our baby in with lots of apps. I clothed it with a brown leather and put on 'contact lense' (protective screen la) on it.

Buying me flowers, chicken soft toy, more flowers, more things. Basically he just made himself even more unpredictable. He has successfully scrape of that predictable mask and been keeping it off for some time after we got together. I need to buck up and be unpredictable too. I have been an annoying little pest, a lazy one at that, who refuses to do her work and wallows in self pity whole day. CRAP!

Waiting Room

2011-12-08T00:58:00.000+08:00

I'm in the 'Waiting Room' of AirAsia. Just because I don't get to sleep cause I'm doing my assignment, I decided to join in the fun.

And I am listening (yes, listening) to How I met your mother. It's a tv series and because I am doing my assignment, we are just LISTENING to it. Damn sad.

But in the afternoon, I did a very happy thing. I SHOPPED!! Online. =) Then I got scared and ran to Daniel. I know, I'm weird. He is much calmer. Of course, not his money.

Oh well. Assignments are driving me crazy. I don't even know what I'm doing. I really need to get this over with.

Continue waiting.

Baked Mashed Potato

2011-12-07T10:27:00.000+08:00

Got this idea from my CG friend.

It is SUPER easy to make.

You'll need:-

3 Potatoes (actually depending on how much you want to eat, I made 3, you can make 10. Just agak-agak.)
RM 2/3 minced meat (put more if you have more potatoes)
1 packet of Enoki Mushroom
Chopped garlic
Cheese (Parmesan / normal sliced cheese will do)
Butter (to mix with the potatoes)
Salt and pepper to taste

1. First, boil your potatoes.
2. At the same time, fry some chopped garlic. Put in the mince meat and Enoki Mushroom.
3. Put salt and pepper to taste.
4. Mashed your potatoes and mix in some butter.
5. Put your mince meat in a plate (suitable for baking) and put the mashed potato on top of it.
6. Line the cheese on top of the potato and bake till the cheese has melt.
7. Get ready your tummy for a yummilicious snack.

It's good, trust me. And SUPER EASY!

Life of a Master student.

2011-12-06T10:27:00.000+08:00

Working was mundane but studying is mad busy. T_T Been reading journals after journals, books after books (and watching Forensic Heroes 3) but still haven't finish doing my assignments. And I have only two weeks left to vomit something out to be handed in. Last minute work does kill!!!

Anyway, I will survive. As I am too lazy/busy to update my blog, twitter and everything else, I will make it an effort to at least post a recipe each week, whether the ones I've tried or have been meaning to try. Just to keep my blog alive. Recipes or craft ideas. Just in case I didn't cook.

Daniel and I bought these beautiful glasses from Daiso (RM5 for 3) to make dessert as we got pretty cheap oreos (RM2 per tube) over the weekend. Will be trying out some dessert soon. We have bananas, oreos, full cream milk (to whip them up), vanilla pound cake and some other biscuits. Daniel will create his own layered dessert. Will see how it goes.

Next up,
Baked mashed potato (like pie)

My Happiest Moments

2011-10-24T10:27:00.000+08:00

For those who knows me well, you would know that I take pictures ALL THE TIME. Especially of myself. And when I am with Eemoes (my girlfriends), it's even worst. We can take 600 pictures on our 2 day one night apartment stay and really, all the photos are just of us doing silly things. Daniel would know even better since he has been elected the chief photographer ever since we got together. And he loves his job I think.

I was trying to choose a picture of my happiest moment and I browse through my pictures. I have many happy moments, so many that I couldn't seem to pinpoint to one. Imagine having a harddisk full of pictures and pictures only. Vainpot I am.

I am blessed and I am happy with my family, boyfriend and my awesomer that awesomest girlfriends. God blessed me with people who truly care.

I decided for the sake of the competition to choose pictures when I laugh the loudest (or appears to) and I decided to take the one during my convocation with Eemoes. This is the picture of me laughing unsophisticatedly because we were taking multiple shots and we don't know what else to do.

They came and waited for me for an hour, went around with me to take pictures of me with my Pong Pong tree, under the humid weather and yet able to smile with me. I love my girls. And I got my girraffe!!!! And flowers...and teddies...I am loved. Daniel is again the photographer and he captures beautifulllll candid shots of me. Damn pro my chief photographer I tell you. Olympus Pen will come in handy for my chief photographer to practise on his photography skills and capture even more beautiful moments like this for me.

It's impossible to choose just one happiest moment but to be able to live each day with my loved ones is the happiest moment for me. And if I win the Olympus Pen, I'll ADD on to the happy moments and be happier!!!! The boyfie really needs a camera that doesn't have a red light on ALL THE TIME.

Simply because I love green really.

Much has happened since 6th August

2011-10-11T10:44:00.001+08:00

I went to Bangkok

Nom-ed countless amount of Swensens with

Mr. Ice-cream Fan

Came back and enrolled in my Masters programme. Study + work is no easy feat. Especially when you have mad study schedule which throws you with quiz on Week 4 and lots of words you've never heard before. Was reading almost every day two weeks ago only to go to class and realized we've read the wrong chapter for our quiz. The lecturer was referring to old book while we are all using new book. How would we know that the two books were so different? What was once in Chapter 2 is now in Chapter 6. Talk about changes.

Then Yi Lin had her convocation.

which Ah Win and I attended. The rest couldn't due to work commitment.

Then Daniel had his convocation and I was running around like mad girl.

In the afternoon I think, AWESOMEST had hers.

The next day, it's MINE!!! So I threw some mortar board with Yi Lin,

Took some pictures with my family.

And got showered with love from awesome people like this.

Then we went to Diana's convo (which I dont have the picture and the following week, we went for this awesome good food.

Celebrated Pao's birthday two days ago and now back to studying studying and studying. I'm surrounded by people who loves me for who I am and not talk behind my back. There are some who does but I've got plenty who don't. Thank you sayangs.

Three more to go? Swee Win, Ling Ling and Hooi Shan's convo. Just that theirs are all too far for us. One in Sabah, one in KL and one in UK!!

Back from Bangkok and off to school

2011-09-14T12:09:00.000+08:00

Came back from Bangkok on Sunday and attended my first class yesterday. Will be going to another one later. This marks the beginning of my Masters' life. Although I am taking just two papers this semester, the first one is enough to set me back and shiver a little.

Nevertheless, the show has to go on and I have to stick to it. It will be okay. Will be back to work tonight teaching a group of very interesting students. Bangkok was INSANE... but I love it. Just not so much of the food cause we eat almost the same thing every day. Penang or Malaysia still has the best food ever..

Will blog about Bangkok cause we found out an easier route to our hotel which is like 20% out of the cost we took to get to our hotel. When you are in Bangkok, you want to save as much as you can for the hotel and the transportation cause 1baht saved is 1baht more to shop. Will definitely try to blog everything but we have like 600 pictures so it'll take some time (and with my procrastination, my work, my studies, some time is an understatement).

Counting down

2011-08-05T11:32:00.000+08:00

Wah, I did not blog for more than a month. Damn power /flips hair. I kept doing this /flip hair thing with Daniel, even when I'm half asleep. He usually wakes up at like 7.30 am and by 8.10am, he'll be talking to me when I'm half asleep. When he praise me, I'll flip hair and I'll do it even when I'm half asleep.

So basically I wake up by 8.30am (if I can steal a few more winks) and pack his lunch. Then see him off before I go back to sleep or come online.

My daily routine is
1. Wake up, pack his lunch (he has to heat it up himself because I want to sleep)
2. See him off, online
3. Cut the ingredients to cook and then of course cook.
4. Take my bath.
5. Pack my dinner and eat my lunch.
6. Off to work for 8 hours.
7. Reach home at 10.30pm, he washes the dishes (if I'm too tired or I have other things to do)
8. Laze around watching shows on laptop, play games or talk to each other, counting down our working days.
9. Sleep till next morning.

The cycle repeats itself for 4 days (Tuesday to Friday) and on Saturday, as I'm working early, I'll just wake up, bathe, see him off, eat breakfast, tapao lunch and go to work.

I kind of like my job if not for the time. I kind of like the kids if not for the SUPER noisy ones. (Thank God Miss Leila is back and she's taking all the noisy ones with her.)

Thank God for this job nevertheless. Gives me RM1.2k and I don't sit around rotting or spending money in the malls. It's not too bad a job. Just a little lazy.

So looking forward to Bangkok with Daniel!!!! Began to write down what I want to buy there. Daniel has a shopping bug in him too. I like! One more month to go.

God is Faithful

2011-06-30T09:18:00.000+08:00

I learn to see things in a different perspective (though I still whine and complain and get lazy all the time).

My God is a faithful God. He will not leave me nor forsake me. I just have to cling onto Him and trust and have faith that He knows best. That whatever I am going through, He knew it and has gone before me to prepare the way.

He knows best and I just have to obey and follow for He will make a way for me. I may feel tired, demotivated, disappointed at times in my life, asking if it's the right thing to do but no man can answer to that but God. He knows everything.

This is all a process and a trying period. I will survive this for I trust in my God.

Praise the Lord I got into USM for my Masters in English and Linguistics Studies! Studying and working part time...This will be my first time so bear with my whining at times.

Start all over

2011-06-24T12:43:00.000+08:00

Being a teacher for one month has taught me quite some stuff.

1. Kids are not always that cute. Sometimes you'll get high blood pressure.

2. But not all kids are that bratty.

3. I don't know that much English as I thought I knew. I have to revise all the phonics and grammar because all these while, the only teacher to my grammars and pronunciation are my ears. If it sounds good, it's good.

4. I have to turn all these laziness, negative emotions of fear and anxiety and stress to motivation. This is not just a job. This is a moulding and learning process. He knows I need it.

=) It's a beautiful Friday. I'm looking forward to work. (Yes, the blue dragged too long but at least the sun is shining now.)

Extended blues

2011-06-23T12:22:00.002+08:00

Just so you know, my Tuesday blues have officially extended till Thursday. Barely one month of working and I'm having blues EVERY SINGLE DAY. Need to be more motivated!!!!

Lazy... *nua*

Dreams

2011-06-21T09:25:00.002+08:00

I've always wanted to be an editor or a journalist. Then when I finished with my degree, I decided to settle down as a teacher purely because there's not much opportunity here as editor or journalist. Most of the jobs are in KL.

Now I'm having a second thought. Seeing my friends getting what they wanted, I'm thinking if the path I chose is the right one. Should I be working or should I continue studying?

God will make a way and He will show me my path. At the mean time, I'll just have to do my job as a teacher well. 4 classes for me today. I'll be okay.

The first thing I'll buy when I get my salary is

2011-06-17T12:57:00.002+08:00

A FREAKING PAIR OF CONTACT LENSE. I NEED TO DRESS UP.

=( and take pictures..to make me feel better.

I thought I just dislike working in office but the truth is, I think I just dislike working.

Thank God there's cute people at the centre who'll make me smile. That helps to ease my laziness.

Now I have to drag my sorry feet out to wait for bus. Working life sucks.

Working adult's life - From a teacher's perspective

2011-06-16T12:01:00.000+08:00

is very boring. Wake up, cook, online a bit, bathe, go work, come back, roll around watch show, sleep.

No matter how much you think you enjoy your job, you'll still feel lazy. (Or is it just me?)

It's better to have a lot of work. Time passes faster that way. If you are too free, you'll feel like the clock has stopped moving and 10pm doesn't seem to come.

If you are a teacher, best if you have many classes. 8 hours will pass easily.

Not all students are going to like you. Especially if you are new and still learning how to teach. T_T Learn and improve.

Do not be too nice, students will step all over you. Do not be too fierce, either the boss will come after you or the parents will. And your student will stop responding to you.

Not all students can understand you even if you use simple english. So do your homework, find more examples.

Please master the skills of hiding your yawn. You'll need it a lot.

All jobs are hard. There is no easy job in this world. Even a housewife needs to think of what to cook every day.

As much as you complain and whine each day, when the time comes, you'll still have to drag your sorry feet out of the gate and go to work.

This is the life of a working adult. Really not much fun.

Why am I so quiet lately?

2011-06-10T12:05:00.000+08:00

Not in a real sense but in a blog world sense. I've been working for two weeks now and it feels surreal. I may be lazy to go to work sometimes (still a brat at heart) but I always wake up on time to cook lunch and dinner before I go to work.

I am learning from this job and I kind of enjoy it. It is hard to handle kids but I gain my confidence from them. I love being called Teacher in a weird way. I am glad I took this path instead of jumping straight into the adults path because I believe I learn so much more now than before.

Kids nowadays learn words that are so hard, they got their teacher looking for dictionary. Either that, or my English is very weak. But I am learning, I am learning each day, from these kids and also to further help myself. I am happy with my job and I hope I will be every single day until I resign.

That's why I've been quiet. Because I've been busy. Haven't been taking pictures lately and I so need to get my contact lenses. Wait till I get my salary. Cause I need to dress up so badly!!!

Interviewed and hired

2011-05-26T18:25:00.000+08:00

Now it's up to me to try out the classes and decide if I'm willing to sign one year of my life for it.

=) Thank God for such a smooth sailing interview and also for the favour to be upon me since there's another girl waiting to be interviewed after me.

Both interviews I went, I was hired but the first one wasn't what I expected it to be. And never judge a book by its cover cause the second one seems easy (from the website) but when I went for the interview, it was more tricky.

May this be a stepping stone for me to know the business better. The teaching business. Another chapter of my life slowly opening up.

God does provide. =)

To the 16 year old me

2011-05-23T10:06:00.001+08:00

Dear 16 year old Ping Ping,

Just thought you might want to know what will happen to you in the next 7 years. You will be having the time of your life for the next two years. However, you will have to know that SPM is not like any other exams. You must study for it. Even if just a little bit. I know this may sound a little stupid but if you don't study, you will be stressed out during the exam (which may sound ridiculous for you now but trust me) and you will suffer from anxiety attack. So do prepare okay? Don't just study your Bio seminar book.

In this year, you will accidentally call a friend of yours while sleeping and that will cost you a lot because that stupid friend did not hang up. You will end up with him and it's a bad idea. But if you were to experience it, do not put too much heart in it. Otherwise, do make sure that you do not put your phone beside you when you sleep. Do not spend so much time talking to people you do not know. You will not end up being a spinster so ignore these people okay?

You will get 6A but it's good enough for you. Study Form 6 and I stress on that. MUST CHANGE TO ARTS STREAM OKAY? Then APPLY FOR USM. I have to stress all these because you will get to know the Lord more after you enter USM and then you will get to know the love of your life too. Let God take charge of your life, He always do.

Anyway, You will gain A LOT OF WEIGHT so make sure you eat less. You will eventually lose them when you enter uni but lose some weight when you can. Appreciate your friends (Emmoes) and Bentengz whom you'll meet when you are in Form 6 because they will eventually be your bestest friends and still be your bestest friends after uni. You will enter USM to do a course not many people know and do not believe the lecturers when they tell you it's the coolest course ever cause really, it's not as cool as they said it was.

Join PKA and there you'll get to know your future boyfriend, God and many other awesome people. APPRECIATE the seniors because they will be very important people in your life. Check out the guy name Daniel Chong and try to get to know him better. He may be a bully and funny guy but he will be your boyfriend and you will learn to see his soft sides and his wonderful character.

Uni life will be the place you grow spiritually so let God take charge okay? After your degree, you'll be stuck in a phase where I am now, no job, no money and no aim but have faith that God will take charge and God will provide. You will be okay. Have faith, hold strong to God and know that He knows best. Oh and your sister, Pao Pao will marry Mr Lim so try not to provoke him too much. And Ah Ma will move in to stay with you and you will learn to love-hate her many patterns.

Love,
the 23 year old me

Grape Seller turned Ribbon maker

2011-05-21T09:04:00.000+08:00

since I've been selling grapes for almost a month now (no business), I decided to make some ribbon flowers to be made into hair pins. Loving them. Think can make better ones but for starter, it's pretty good so I'll just give myself a pat in the back for my lack of artistic genes but still the ability to produce such cute hair pins.

I have yet to take pictures of them but I have already made them into hair pins for my usage. Thank you for those who are helping me to keep a lookout for jobs. =) I am greatly touched. I actually kinda enjoy my tai-tai life for now but will still look for jobs okay?

I wonder if everyone else got their job already. Feeling a little lonely and left out here.

Selling fresh grapes

2011-05-16T09:24:00.001+08:00

When everyone else are either working or interning or holiday-ing, here I am, sitting in front of my laptop, waiting impatiently for someone to call me and ask me for an interview.

I should not worry. God has His plans. So I shall enjoy my break while I still can. Today I'm gonna sit around doing nothing until noon and see if my aunt wants to bring me to town for a spin. I should enjoy my holiday right? It just feel empty when everyone else has things to do and I'm just sitting around.

Pictures from our lil getaway. =) Got my face only because he got to be the photographer. <3 ze beach and morning sun.

Sudah jatuh, ditimpa tangga

2011-04-26T10:51:00.000+08:00

It all started with me flooding my phone in my bag. How would I know that the 'sweat' from the bottle can actually flood the whole freaking bag with everything inside it? So my phone kinda died when I reach Penang (Thank God) and so it's now lying dead on my table.

So Daniel and I had to resort to chatting on MSN or facebook.chat to make lunch and dinner plans. Then my MSN on my laptop went crazy and I had to resort to using my iPod's MSN to talk to Daniel since he hardly on his facebook. Katanya don't want facebook to earn advertorial money from his page.

Then my ipod suddenly shut off and got crazy too. And I had to restore everything to its orginal state. So now I got a dead phone, a crazy MSN on laptop, a restored and empty ipod (with no MSN, email whatsoever) and a boyfriend who still refuse to leave his facebook on lest facebook earns money from advertorial on his site.

So I have to facebook spam his wall (which of course has no effect since he don't ON his facebook anyway). I think I should email him instead. If all fails, I'll have to write him a snail mail that will reach him in 3 days and I have to spend 80 cents.

T_T

Saying goodbye

2011-04-21T10:23:00.001+08:00

This is what I wore for Farewell Night

With my AWESOMEST FRIEND

With bii

What I wore for BATI night. With Naqiah

With Sarah

Wink.

Ended my uni life with two dinner with people I hang out with most - my coursemates and PKA-ians. Both were okay. I kinda regretted not giving a speech during FN. Next time I graduate (in two years time) I will give. CONFIRM. I'll write one and read it if I must. Cause I'll be too scared. And I'll make sure what happened that day won't happen again.

I will be back, PKA-ians. (if you still want me to)

My 23rd Birthday

2011-04-18T10:11:00.000+08:00

I need to get a job but there's so many things I want to do this holiday. This long long holiday like learn sewing, do my mini project, write more blog posts and relax. But I still need to get a job so I'll need to go hunting for some tutor job or something. Freelance. I don't want to be in the office from 9-5.

Ok pictures galore from birthday.

We started with a surprise lunch at Soul Kitchen. So sweet of him.

Awesome deco!!!

Then we went Redbox!!!!! Karaoke!!!! Daniel is awesomely cute when he sings. I love.

Me all dressed up. Ok I'm done.

I skipped my Spanish oral for an awesome time on my birthday and a happy boyfriend. Now it's my turn to make his birthday even better /kiasu. He did so much for me, he needs some pampering too!!!

I need pictures from Diana cause they bought me a little cake the other day. SO SWEEETTTT... <3 they love me. Teeheee.... I love my friends.

Shaking leg

2011-04-15T10:49:00.000+08:00

Many has happened after my last letter to my lecturer (which still makes me feel dumb).

I skipped the test and class. Had an AWESOMEEEE time with Daniel in Redbox, had an okay Farewell Night. Gonna miss the people in PKA!!!

Then the girls (Emmoes) got me a BIRTHDAY CAKE!! Ping Ping is a very simple girl. She just need her birthday cake. =P But all is well now. I am resting for a few days before studying for exam.

Little Poupee my accessories blogshop is doing okay. I want to bring in more beautiful necklaces and rings!!!! Have to work harder in sourcing those. But overall, life has been great.

I need to get my blogging mojo back. Been lazy on that. Have a little project up in my head but still yet to do it. =) Need to stay focus!!!

And need to get a job. Cause I'm going to be jobless soon. I am currently a student. When I graduate, I'm no longer a student but a jobless young adult. teeheee...

Not very smart

2011-04-05T10:31:00.001+08:00

I just emailed my lecturer to tell her if I can do my oral in the morning because I don't plan to go to class in the evening.

Not very smart eh?

To what she replied, "Sorry, but I have something else in the morning. It is better if you do it during class time."

So now not only I have to attend a class on my birthday, my lecturer knows I have the intention to skip class and I don't think she'll be very happy or very nice to me.

T_T My first mistake was falling sick on the day I'm supposed to do my oral.

2nd mistake, I emailed her to inform her, hoping that she will go all furious and say you don't have to do oral anymore. Mana tau she nicely tell me, "It's okay, you can do it on Thursday." /bangheadonthewall.

3rd, I emailed her again, throwing myself over the cliff by saying, "Can I do my oral on Thursday morning instead because it's my birthday and I actually did not want to go to class?" /bangheadonthewalldoublehard.

I iz the most kurang bijakz person on earth. Now I just throw stones at my boyfriend who had planned everything for me, bang my head twice on the wall and put salt in lecturer's eyes so she won't be liking me very much.

YAY.

I am tempted to just disappear into thin air.

Choosing Profile Picture

2011-03-30T11:08:00.001+08:00

Was browsing facebook for no reason because I've just finished my test (which was super hard like mad don't ask). So I went to this find friends thingie to see for fun. And I've come to a conclusion that,

You should not put scary picture of yourself on the profile picture. Especially if in small icon, your profile picture only shows your eyes. Super creepy I tell you.

I've seen enough EYES today.
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2 more weeks to the end of the semester (excluding study week and exam week) I am finally finishing with my 3rd year. Can't wait. I mean I don't want to leave PKA and all but I can't wait to finish up everything, submit it and next time, listen to other people's advice. But I'm not gonna let this unimportant person changed my stand that there are nice people out there. I still believe in kindness.

Haibun - Journey to class

2011-03-11T10:12:00.000+08:00

I take the same route to classes every morning since first year. Each day, the feeling is different because I take the route at different times of the day. I love the morning ones the most. I love the morning breeze and fresh air on my way to class. Morning dew are seen on the tip of the grasses and on the buds of the flowers.

Today, I leave my room earlier so that I can enjoy the walk while breathing in fresh air and admiring the beauty of God’s creation. Birds chirping as I walk past the grassy area. Flower petals and leaves bestrew the ground as though it is autumn. Then I come to the side of the road. That is when the life in a city set in. Cars zooming pass early in the morning. I almost forgot that I’m living in a city when I am surrounded with lakes, trees and beautiful flowers.

Walking to class,
Morning breeze blew in my face,
A refreshing start.

Birds chirping everywhere,
Flowers blooming, leaves falling,
It felt like autumn.

Each day I thank God,
His creation kept me at awe,
Every morning.

Cars zooming pass me,
Breaking the serenity,
City life set in.

I cross the road carefully as I do not want to offend any grumpy morning drivers. Walking at the pavement, I look up to the mountains far away and the big trees that are giving me shed. I am amazed at His creation once again. Morning rays sipped through the big trees, landing on my hands. It gives me some warmth from those morning breeze. The shadows of trees form on the ground. I look at its uniqueness. Each tree gives different shadows creating a beautiful natural design on the ground. Drops of morning dew landed on my hands. The trees sway to the morning breeze and drop some dews. I wipe off the dews.

Then the bus pulled up, with its loud engine, interrupting my quiet walk. Then the bus take off, leaving behind smokes from exhaust pipe, choking the students who are walking. I can see students walking fast. We are late for class. I quicken my steps as I walk pass chattering students.

Big friendly trees,
Overlook me from above,
Protect me from sun.

Drops of morning dew,
Landing on my hands and hair,
Little drops of water.

Bus running by,
Smokes coming out from the exhaust,
Choking all passer-by.

I reach my class. Yet another exciting journey I take to class. God’s creation and His power is beyond comprehension. I can only awe at His awesome power.

People think we are superheroes

2011-03-03T00:19:00.000+08:00

otherwise, why would they throw more and more work on us? You think very fun is it? The last thing I need now is more homework or people telling me, eh I got even more okay? Cause I DON'T CARE. I DON'T CARE IF YOU GOT MORE WORK CAUSE I HAVE MY RIGHT TO COMPLAIN. IF YOU DON'T LIKE, TALK TO THE WALL.

I'm so sick of people telling me, eh, you got it easier okay? You took the easy way out, taking so few papers and all. I LIKE YOU LIKE? TALK SO MUCH. Ok, I'm just grumpy because I haven't finished my short story and I got narratives to write. And I got projects to complete (3 to be exact..siao 1).

Who told you uni life is fun?

Having MY time

2011-02-22T11:35:00.000+08:00

It has been a while since I last do nothing, sit around, watch shows, do my work and just chill. I miss doing this. I used to spend every meal alone in my room and spend the entire day doing MY thing. But now it's more like OUR time, OUR thing.

I love having MY time. Went to meet lecturer just now and got my draft back. Need to rewrite the story but I'll settle the things I have in hand now first before attempting to do the others. I have quite some items on the list that needs urgent attention but I'll be okay. I'll pull through.

Me at beach. =) Such a blessing to have a boyfriend who is good at taking picture. Then I get to dress up, go somewhere and take picture. FOC dating. But I have to remind him again and again to take picture of me and not just of the place because he tends to neglect me when he saw beautiful views or interesting thing to capture. What to do? I not interesting enough ma.

Y U NO

2011-02-19T18:49:00.000+08:00

Was trying to slimify myself using photoshop with the help of Daniel. The picture not with me but it was darn successful. As in I'll be contented if I got that face. Smaller a bit but I'll be super contented already. Anyways, after that I realized, I'll look so much better if I'm like that. So I'm determined to exercise and try to diet. *ties red bandana on head*

FATS!!! Y U NO GO?

Steamboats

2011-02-17T14:09:00.001+08:00

I had 6 days of steamboats at different houses, cooked by different family and they all taste different. I know, you might be thinking, steamboat is just soup and those ingredients like fishball, fish, prawns, meat, vegetables right? How can it taste different?

Every family has their own way of cooking the soup and they are all yummiliciously different!

2 days before CNY I cleverly suggested dinner at Bar-B-Q

My ATM was there. <3

Nom nom nom

The night before CNY had reunion steamboat at Chih Heng's place.

1st Day of CNY steamboat at Ah Win's

Making Popiah for the first time.

2nd Day of CNY was spent at Sis's Godmum's place where I had another round of steamboat - tomyam and clear soup but I did not take picture.

3rd day of CNY, I had my steamboat at Shan's new place

Nom nom nom ice cream.

And the final one was at home but I don't have the picture with me now. So CNY has been of steamboats. Not that I'm complaining. I love anything soup. And homecook ones beats anything out there.

The Valentine's Day

2011-02-15T21:09:00.001+08:00

It's my first and probably the best ever!!!

The boyfriend did this. Lantern all over, handmade flowers. I'm loved.

Whee lanterns.

More lanterns before the candle finished or they started to burn off.

Some successful shots with the lanterns though it was dark.

This is when the lanterns started to burn off and there's no flash.

Then with flash.

My cute boy.

Poor boy, have to clean up after that some more. Hard at work.

Handmade flowers. <3

I am poser.

So this is what he did. He fetched me from Fajar since I thought he had cg till late and I was half-drenched from the rain earlier. So he drove like mad without stepping on the brake. I was shocked and I didn't know where we were going. Then he led me to some place which I don't know but it was scary with wet grasses. Then I saw that, that little place all lit up with these lanterns and I melted. I am loved, well-loved. =) And I am happy.

That boy has been running around all night trying to pull that together and it was raining but it stopped and he made it. He has to be the sweetest guy I've ever met and he's mine.
And nah, tonnes of useless photos of me just because I like it. Can't wait to go camwhore at some beautiful place with that flowers he made. Flowers that wil not wither.

Highlights at Monkey's House

2011-02-15T13:59:00.003+08:00

Discussing about the puppy

Mahjong with no money involved. I can't even read the characters for goodness sake.

Faster faster.

Adorable kid

Happy climbing up the stairs. /melts

Happy and Lucky. SO CUTE

Kiwi

The tiny Happy

Taking care of it like a baby

Big Lucky

I want both!!!

Add caption

Nom nom nom

Making sure the pups are not coming up

Guard at work. =P

Group picture of the day

Puppies up

Kiwi and Lucky

my cousin and I, with Kiwi and Lucky

awwwwww

Lucky still active.

Chinese New Year check list.
Family - Checked
Laughter - Checked
Camera - Checked
Taking pictures - Checked
Food- Checked
Firecrackers - Checked
Ang Pows- Checked.

It was a great one. I had fun. And it was that faithful day, my grandma forgot my ang pow. =( All is well now.

These babies melted my heart

2011-02-13T16:27:00.001+08:00

In a very different way Daniel Chong Voon Chuen, don't sulk there.

I have never been a big fan for dogs, puppies yes. And I'm still scared of huge dogs. These babies in my cousin's house melted my heart over the Chinese New Year.

Happy happily in my arms and Lucky stood by. Pups are so smart, they look into the camera.

It's clear I was totally hooked on Happy.

Lucky acting selamba at the side.

Forcing Happy to camwhore with me to which I failed cause Happy wasn't looking at the camera, neither was I since I was practically cut out of the picture.

Happy iz shy.

But I wasn't. T_T Shameless

I want Happy!!!

How not to love these pretty pups here? I want a puppy too...Or a hamster. I don't care!

Spot the chicken

2011-02-11T15:06:00.001+08:00

One on top of the cupboard

Four on the tv console.

Closer shots of the chickens

GOT EGG SOME MORE. I THOUGHT IT'S REAL EGG. I confirmed it's not, kok-ed it.

Two more closer shots of those on the console.

Apparently, chicken is good. So my aunt being the more-the-merrier-person, there you go, chickens everywhere. In fact I remembered seeing a few more in the kitchen or somewhere, but I did not capture it.

This is when I'll say, "Too much lah you."

Pre-Chinese New Year

2011-02-08T22:22:00.001+08:00

Chinese New Year has been of eating, eating and more eating. It has been a while since I last posted any picture in my blog because I'm ~~plain lazy~~ very busy. You know, final year student with final year projects, I have a life to live okay? =P I do miss blogging, posting nonsensical stuff and laughing at myself. But the boyfriend, Mr. Daniel Chong Voon Chuen says my blog is too wordy, too boring for him. Cis.

So I shall only update for those who are interested to read of my not so eventful life. Let me write this for Chinese New Year first. Other rants will be in next post alrighty?

The three sisters have something in common, you see. No, it's not the face or the chin or the height. It's the thick-skinnedness. Even before Chinese New Year, while we were cleaning up our house and decorating our place, we go on telling our boyfriends, friends and anyone who cares to listen, "Our house will be very pretty soon."

So we had to make sure it was pretty else we'll have to put mud on our faces and stay in our 'pretty' house the entire Chinese New Year.

Love the redness of this place. I totally adore this huge huge mirror.

Smartest purchase this year was the curtain and this set of cushion covers. Worst buy last year? The curtains and that set of cushion covers. Yep, we learn fast.

Everything is red red and ong ong. Love that centerpiece.

The usual red 'chai' (the red cloth that we must put on our door during Chinese New Year)
You see, we recycle all our decos, so these things are only out to see the world once a year.

That little (not so little actually) plant over there was decorated by me. /action maction.

My bedroom where the fluffiest and comfi-est bed is at. /rolls around.

Oranges that are carefully swirled with red papers as offerings. I am a Christian but my grandma still practises all this.

You will not recognize these containers now since they are either empty or soon to be empty.

So tell me now, my house pretty or not? /glares

The Forgotten Ang Pow

2011-02-08T13:45:00.000+08:00

"Hey, you got your ang pow from ah ma already?" I asked as I woke up on the second day of Chinese New Year.

It is unlike my grandmother to forget to give us ang pow on the first day of Chinese New Year. Every year, she would do it early in the morning as soon as she wakes up. This year she stayed over at my aunt's.

"Yes, I got mine. Why?" my sister asked half-heartedly. She was getting ready to go out again.

"I haven't got mine! Has che che got hers?" I asked again.

"I think so. Ah ma gave it last night while you were busy playing with the dogs. See, told you to stop playing with the dogs," she said, sounding ever so sarcastic.

"Are you sure?" I hurriedly got off my bed and went to my eldest sister's room.

"Che, you got your ang pow from ah ma already?" I asked even before she open her eyes.

"Yes," she answered in her sleep.

"She forgot mine already," I mumbled under my breath.

"Why girl? Why looking so sad?" asked mummy who just got into the room.

"Ah ma forgot my ang pow I think. I am too embarrass to tell her about it," I grumbled softly.

"I'll tell ah ma okay? I think she must have missed yours with so many grandchildren now," mummy said, hurriedly went to Ah ma's room.

From far, I could hear mummy say, "Ah Mak, you forgot to give Ah Girl ang pow."

A smile was formed on my face. I may have grown up but that moment, I felt like a small kid again, feeling excited to get my ang pow.

The super gory movie that I'll never watch

2011-01-24T00:21:00.000+08:00

Last last Monday we were asked or even forced to watch this bloody (no pun intended) short clip which was taken out of some movie. I've decided not to taint my blog with the bloody clip.

So basically we were supposed to watch (yes, even if you spent most of your time watching your own finger) and then write what we saw. I don't think I can write fingers only though I have the urge to do just so.

What I saw was
That little boy was walking on the long unending road aimlessly, his steps were slow and unstable. He was probably tired from all the walking and even feel drowsy. He looked like he was going to faint, probably felt dizzy from the heat of the hot sun. He looked blur, weak and he was perspiring a lot. He was probably afraid and felt lost.

Then I saw blood dripping onto his white shoes. His steps quicken.

Then a car came behind him.
A man chased after him. The man was terrified, panicked and was worried upon what he saw. He tried to hug the boy and give him the support he needs. Trying to help him walk. Then the boy fainted and the man was worried. He felt lost and started screaming and shouting for help as he could not do anything. No one else was around.

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The next clip was in a restaurant or ballroom where a ceremony was to be held.
There was chattering and giggles everywhere. People were dressed nicely and they looked rich. People are talking loudly and laughing as they like. There are people who whispers and some who felt out of place and lost were nervous, playing with their hands and fingers. They are probably bored too since no one seems to be talking to them and they can't seem to join the conversation.

There are people giving toast and a man was burping and laughed at his own bad table manners. Then they showed jewelleries on the women to perhaps portray their status. A man was talking to the manager and then they took picture as though it's a reunion. Shortly, a speech was been given on the stage and those who has been chattering non-stop finally settled down quietly to listen. They were attentive and applause was given at the right time.

That's about all that I noticed.

You keep learning each day

2011-01-20T15:16:00.000+08:00

I learnt that not everyone is going to be nice to you, swallow it and move on.

I learnt that though some people may be nice to you in front of you, they might be talking behind you. Swallow it, move on.

I learnt that everyone has their own secret weapon and never underestimate other people.

I learnt that there are bound to be many advices (if you are lucky). Choose wisely and do not follow blindly.

I learnt that people will use all their effort to make you think like they do. But what matters is, what does He think? It is okay to say no to people and move the other direction if He told you to.

I learnt that life is an on-going learning process and you don't stop learning.

It's okay to not know now. But learn so you know it tomorrow.

Slipping Through My Fingers

2011-01-16T00:38:00.007+08:00

Finally, they have all grown up. The two elder ones went to work. Even my baby girl drove back to her uni. I smiled as I saw her pulled away, remembering how she always gave me that 'heart attack' and 'disco-in-car' when she first started driving. I wipe those bread crumbs off the table and got ready for work.

As I drove to work, I recall those times when these little brats of mine refuses to wake up for class. Oh how I had to drag and pull them into the toilet, splash them with cold water to give them that morning wake up 'call' they need. They always manage to give me 1001 reasons why they should stay home instead of going to school. Those years of toiling to give them the best ever, all those are now over, very well over.

I can still hear their laughter and chattering every time the lift door opens at level 6. Though those are just memories, I cherish the times we once had. I laughed to myself, thinking of the silly things the baby will do just to make me smile. And how her two elder sisters will cringe at her silliness because they are just too 'grown-up' for it. Now, even she is too 'grown-up' for it.

I turned around to that familiar smell, that smell that got me salivating each time I walk passed that 'char siew' stall. There they were behind me with a plate of 'char siew', roasted to perfection. "Happy Mother's Day!" they echoed.

Tears streamed down my eyes.

Slipping through my fingers all the time
I try to capture every minute
The feeling in it
Slipping through my fingers all the time
Do I really see whats in her mind
Each time I think I'm close to knowing
She keeps on growing

Slipping through my fingers all the time
Sometimes I wish that I could freeze the picture
And save it from the funny tricks of time
Slipping through my fingers...

They may have grown-up, but they will forever be my mischievous babies.

http://www.elyrics.net/read/a/abba-lyrics/slipping-through-my-fingers-lyrics.html

*** This is purely for my assignment purpose. And no I don't have kids, I'm not even married yet. ***

Disappointed

2011-01-13T11:35:00.000+08:00

Some people can be so disappointing sometimes. I think no matter what anyone did, at least give people some credit for trying and actually doing something. Especially if all you do is sit around, minding your own business and making a mountain out of a mole hill over every single thing in the world.

If it's a constructive criticism then by all means. But if it's just saying it because you want to say it then don't discourage people from doing things that you all don't even bother to. If you can do better, then do it. If you can't, then the least you can do is keep quiet. Stop laughing at people's work if you can't even produce something like that in the first place.

People should learn to respect other people.

Mr. Snake

2011-01-04T10:09:00.000+08:00

Today marks the day when I bumped into a snake. Or at least a snake look-a-like.

Not gonna go tasik for my morning walks ever again.

But I'm happy I woke up at 8am to go for a 50 minutes walk. Wanted to go for an hour but I was caught by surprise with the presence of mr. snake/mr. snake look-a-like that I ran. Stadium it is then for my walks.

Thank you Mr. Biawak for being so huge and for moving when you saw me. Thank you Lord for protecting me.

ps: I was talking to God when it happened.

This is crazy

2011-01-04T00:02:00.000+08:00

9 hours of class, out of room for 12 hours IS PURE MADNESS!!!!

One last sem. Up and down the hill, in and out of air cond rooms, from one class to another, cramming 5 subjects in my head. And I am taking 5 subjects only this semester. This means I'm having all 5 subjects in just one day.

Still, I got the energy to watch drama. =) To-do list is piling up though. *peers at the list* Can't wait to get them done and cancel one by one.

Entered 2011

2011-01-01T09:23:00.002+08:00

with Daniel right beside me. We went for EPCC Watchnight service which was the first New Year's eve service I've ever been because when I was younger, I would be out in the crowd like the rest, celebrating it and then I grew older and I just stay at home, do nothing and sleep early. This year, I decided to receive the new year in the house of our Lord.

Had awesome time, laughed, played, ate, sang worship to Him, gave my promise to God and prayed to Him. It was a great time. I decided that this year, I want to start my new year being in His presence and welcome the new year with Him with me knowing that He will be close to me throughout the year.

I looked through my resolution in 2010 and I can proudly say, I did okay. =) 6 out of 10 is not bad right? This year, I shall not make any more resolution. (also cause I can't think of any) But I believe God has His plans for me and He will reveal it one by one. So I'll just wait upon the Lord.

I learnt something yesterday. That I should not focus on the circumstances, or the people in the world when something doesn't go my way or when I have doubts. Instead, focus on God, on our Lord Jesus because He knows best. Our human eyes may not see and our human brains may not comprehend but knowing that He is in charge will help us to surrender all to Him and know that He will make something good out of nothing.

Have an awesome New Year and 2011 will be another exciting year. =)

Waterless

2010-12-30T01:16:00.000+08:00

You know what's worst than a day of running around the university to get your timetable fixed? Coming back to be greeted with NO WATER IN YOUR TOILET.

Everyone else's toilet has water by now. Why not the ones in Fajar? It's really not easy to live in a place where there is no water. And to think that we only do not have water in our toilet but we can still go on to other hostel to get our business done. By business I mean bathe and all the other things. Thank God I'm born in a country where I can get water easily (though it's hard these two days). So you people should remember to turn off your tap tight and if you have to, save water, bathe together. Gosh, that Pn Honey Khoo's tagline is already tattooed in my mind.

I'm homesick. If water doesn't come back by tomorrow, I'm leaving. Either you come back, or I'll leave./angry face. Super drama I know.

Final sem with 9 hours on Mondays, 1 on Tuesdays, 5 on Wednesdays and 2 on Thursdays. I started to have this crazy timetable since my 1st year just that it used to be on Wednesdays when I could hardly breathe, now it's on Monday.

It's 12.57 am now and I kinda miss playing congkak. Need to drag some people to go to USM museum for my congkak game.

And why is everyone suddenly so clean and hygienic? I was celebrating the 'waterless' incident on Facebook, saying how great it is to not have water cause that means I don't have to bathe and people started saying I'm "lasam" and say they can smell me all the way in Butterworth. They are just jealous. Guess what? There's still no water supply. I don't even have to brush my teeth. Jealous? Yay!!! *crawls into bed, nicely tucked under my fleece blankie with ChickBii beside me*

ps: Seriously, I bathed okay? I went to my friend's place in Bakti to bathe. Cause people say I "lasam" and say I stink till Butterworth. =P And I'm brushing my teeth cause I heard we have water in the pantry. I am really not "lasam", I think.

Sick bug

2010-12-09T16:37:00.000+08:00

I'm sick again.

/waves to fleece. Fleece is my best friend now cause I'm always cold. Brrrr~~~

Can't wait to go KL with sayang. =)

<3 Need.to.recover.quick.

Send me some soup/love/hug/warmth/anything this Christmas.

I thought it'll be easy

2010-12-05T18:24:00.000+08:00

but it's worst.

The decision was not a mistake. But to have people avoiding you or staying away from you makes me wonder if I made that decision in a haste. I admit it's also how I carry myself but if everyone is going to say, "Don't want to be lamp post" at the end of the day, the only thing I can do is to hang out with the one person who won't say this to me.

I actually felt lonely. I don't know if it's right to feel this way but I actually feel like a lousy person, feel crappy and I at times hate myself when they say that.

I am a lousy friend.

Another sem gone by

2010-11-19T10:59:00.000+08:00

This has to be the most interesting one throughout my 3 years of uni and it ends so quickly.

First time I finish my exam in the first week with only two papers to battle my life for. People are giving me the i-kill-u look but, but, but...I suffered 2 years already, doesn't that count for anything at all? =P

I've been shaking legs and running around for the past week. Time to slow down my life for a few days before running around again chasing kids in VBS. I find life so fulfilling when I can do things for God, share His love with people around me.

Did a personality test and boy was it accurate. I'm both crazy and emo. SO TRUE. I'm not lazy though, what a relief. =P

Life is getting more and more exciting and the boy has met the parents and close friends and was accepted. Also cause they love me la. And he was a great boy to begin with. Meeting his family later and I'm really not a very good girl so it's going to be tough. =) But he is there to assure me that it'll be ok. <3 No fear.

Wai Kin's Birthday

2010-11-10T08:42:00.000+08:00

It was Daniel's ex-roommate's birthday. So we double-dated to Victoria Station to celebrate his birthday.

Sayang with his default cheeky smile.

The other couple, Wai Kin and Wai Lin.

Their Papaya with Fresh Milk

Nom nom nom.

Our Tiger Prawns and Chicken!! Yums.

Daniel Chong and I.

Praying, look at his serious face.

WK and WL's dinner.

One small cake from us. =P

Happily singing song for WK like a smo boy.

Whee...I love Victoria Station. Very pwetty.

Took a pikture outside of it too.

WK and WL.

Good food, great service, romantic ambience and awesome company. =)

Happy Birthday Wai Kin. =) Glad you had fun.

Of us

2010-11-09T15:06:00.000+08:00

Us and chick bii

There, finally can post up.

Finger-numbing cold

2010-11-08T17:00:00.001+08:00

in the library.

On days like this, it'll be nice to have someone to warm your hands.

=)

THAT Day

2010-11-07T23:40:00.003+08:00

With a non-existent movie date excuse, I was brought up to the highest carpark level in QB, supposedly overlooking beautifully lit up Penang bridge which was unfortunately half-hidden by tall apartments. Saw firework. Yep, no 's' as there's ONLY one. No stars on a cloudy, windy night.

He began his speech, I began to look everywhere else but at him. He then explain that there'll be NO MOVIE and he has something important to ask me.

So he did. And I said, yes.

=) This is the account of THAT day. The date was 7/11/2010, the time was somewhere between 10.40pm to 11pm.

ps: Time adjusted to have my post on THAT day. It is really 1.49am of 8/11/2010 now and I am sleepy.

The word

2010-11-05T14:17:00.001+08:00

sounds nice.

I think I don't mind listening to it again and again.

=)

so...Hah?? What you said? I didn't hear...sorry, wasn't paying attention. =P

Rain + Bed = Bliss

2010-11-01T23:24:00.000+08:00

Both begins with a B but why does 'bed' sound so much more nicer than 'books'?

Not gonna touch them today. Gonna just touch my bed.

If only that lady will stop singing or announcing lucky draw numbers cause I don't feel lucky at all cause I have to endure the noise pollution.

Hello, people actually sleep before 12a.m. if you are not aware of it. /glares.

The downside of staying in Penang, too many ger tai around.

MOKITO BITING ME. =(

Chick Bii

2010-10-22T09:56:00.000+08:00

Have like mad obsession for chickens ever since my friend created a story about chicken cuddling together early in the morning cause of cold and also a chicken that pokes.

Don't you think it's super adorable? And my friend drew this on MSN chatbox okay? Super talented. I can barely draw a proper smiley face. Fail.com Anyways, after I saw Diana got her Miku, I wanted it so bad cause it's cute!!!! I call it Chick Bii, cause it's a confused chicken in bee outfit. Although S&J label it as a duck, IT'S A CHICKEN TO ME.

Hai, I iz Chick Bii.

Squeezing Chick Bii's face. =)

Chick Bii's first meal, Secret Recipe's Raspberry Yogurt Cheese or something. Super bahagia.

More camwhore pic with my Chick Bii.

Berbonding with Chick Bii. =) My Chick Bii is so super duper cute.

Chick Bii at his first Jazz Band concert. Super bahagia la. Got cheesecake, Jazz Band concert all. Nonsense.

That's the end of my Chick Bii's first day out. =) By the way, I sent Chick Bii to his nanny. Staying with the nanny. If you spot him around somewhere, he's with THE nanny. =P

5 things that cheers me up

2010-10-14T14:56:00.000+08:00

#1. The girls in PKA who makes me laugh.

#2. The chicken that pokes. =)

#3. Beach and the girls I went with. <3

#4. Beautiful beautiful beautiful sceneries. Seriously, God, how You do that?

#5. The sister + family that I loveeeee so much.

End with the mulut tutup cause now I got flu. T_T The package one with sore throat, slight feverish and everything else. Yay. NOT.

I iz a neglector

2010-10-11T20:43:00.000+08:00

I neglected my blog. There's a lot of things I want to do, but because I somehow got myself busy with something else, I kind of neglecting everything around me.

I need to get back on track. Still have some work to do before I finish my semester but I'm just a bit lazy today. However, need to get it done cause one of it is due, TOMORROW. Yep, Ping Ping rarely got this OH-NO-TOMORROW-HAND-IN-HOW-NOW-BROWN-COW situation for a long time now.

=) It's nice to feel it once again. NOT.

Anyways, I wanted to upload some pictures but because I'm just so lazy like this, I decided not to. So what's happening in my life? Let's see... I'm happy, I'm sometimes busy but most of the time, I'm happily enjoying my semester. Fine la, I got work to do, but I'm too lazy to do it. I scare myself a lot with lots of presentations but guess what? Semester is coming to an end and I'm finishing my Spoken English. When I finish all my presentations and stuff next week, I'm gonna celebrate it by.......drinking Shandy I tell you. Ok, maybe not, Shandy expensive.

I'm just gonna be the happiest kid on earth la. Apart from the two assignments due next week and the week after next, I'm this close to finishing my first sem for my final year. Ok, typing this is making me very happy but I still have work to do that I have to submit tomorrow. Let me finish that up and get some other stuff done. Can't wait to be all chirpy and happy next week and the week after that. =) I'm happy now. Will be happier then.

I didn't know it feels so good to be happy. =)

I iz dark chocolate

2010-09-23T09:58:00.002+08:00

Holiday was fun! I did my work the first week and play like mad the second. Seriously, one whole week of going out, having fun to the point, I feel tired =P

I gave my friend my hard disk so I can't post pictures. Pictures will be added later.

I went Redbox with friends, had apartment stay like good ol' days, took 1000 pictures, had 3 steamboats in 6 days, then had our much-craving-for mango crepe, went for a swim at 11.30am-damn stupid I know keke, went out with someone for the whole day and had fun, went Hat Yai and shop to my heart's content. Life is good. =) Met Diana TWICE in Hat Yai, super got jodoh can kahwin already if she's a guy. =P

Came back, settled some more work, by next Monday I should be sending in most of my work and starting to relax a little. Still have a few that's due end of October so I have time to get my work done. So fast, I'm finishing my 3rd year first sem. Crazy isn't it? But it has been a wonderful roller coaster ride. Many unexpected things happened and I'm glad it happened.

Got darker and darker. Now I'm no longer white chocolate + milky chocolate. I'm more like dark chocolate. All thanks to the walking in uni, taking insanely lots of pictures on the beach, swimming at 11.30am, I KNOW, what was I thinking? So now, I iz orh kia, mummy say one.

It's true that we plan but God decides. He knows what He wants in our lives and we live each day, surrendering everything to Him cause He knows best. And God, if this is Your plan, i like. =P

Uni is great, few more weeks to finishing this semester and I'm a bit reluctant for it to end so quickly. Time flies when you are happy...or maybe when you are busy =)

Experiment #1

2010-09-12T20:24:00.001+08:00

Guess what? I dyed my hair. With Liese, Chestnut Brown.

Am waiting to see the effect. Can't wait. Waiting for my turn to wash my hair.

My first time of dyeing my hair. It's quite fun and best of all? It's FREE. Sponsored by the sister who colours her with Glossy Brown.

Update more tomorrow or something.

Lots of plans lined up for next week. But assignment not finish. Will work hard tonight so that I can enjoy tomorrow.

<3

Clinic Cafe with Emmoes

2010-09-08T11:40:00.000+08:00

So there's this clinic concept cafe in Gurney Plaza and we decided to pay it a visit since Emmoes are visual beings. We don't mind if the food is just normal, we want the environment. Also to camwhore la. So we went. Diana was er...a bit late and I was practically starving so the food was acceptable to me.

This is Hooi Shan's Tom Yam Bee Hoon. It was spicy to me. But it's still acceptable. They serve their food in this metal container which people use in hospitals during surgery.

Hooi Shan's Tom Yam Bee Hoon, June's Black Pepper Spagheti and Ling Ling's Tom Yam Fried Rice. All super spicy to me. T_T I no goods in eating spicy food.

All the food comes with this tiny little flag and I was telling them, 'Amboi happy posing all, but when PBSM ask to donate, run far far =P'.

As the value of this place is the place itself, we took lots of pictures which I believe will be more if Swee Win comes back to join us.

We got a syringe of....blood...No la, chili sauce. And I purposely ordered the 'money bag' to get this syringe of chili sauce. =P /shy I is like that la. But we get to camwhore with this thing so all is well. Worth the money paid. Nom nom nom.

Me and our (shared with Diana) fried rice I forgot what we ordered. -.-"

The awesome-possum light. Needs to do some surgery now *mask on, coat on* Cuts open....the chicken.

Love the girls.

Our drinks in this...beaker. =P My Chemistry super fail. Forgot all the names for these things already.

And the most important one, Hooi Shan... <3

I would say this place is worth a second visit. For the environment cause a lot of them weren't around to join us. And the food is alright. Not like super good but it's good enough. Besides, the last trip, someone paid for us. Like drama kan? You know you and your giggly girl friends go makan, then walk to the counter to pay.

Cashier: Thank you.

You: How much?

Cashier: No, it's paid for.

You: Huh? What do you mean?

Cashier: Someone paid for you already.

You: No no no, you got the wrong table.

Cashier: No, that person said he/she is your friend. Paid for you already.

You: No, no, I don't have a friend. I think you've made a mistake.

Friends: Sure it's table 25?

Cashier: Yep, table 25.

Friends + you: *Puzzled* okay. Thanks.

*runs in case they realized it's wrong table* KIDDING. =) Friend's friend paid for us. No secret admirer at work here. Sien. Drama Queen wants more drama. *taps finger on the table*

Are you sure?

2010-09-07T18:27:00.000+08:00

It's happening again. I unconciously leaning on another wall, a man-made wall. Not very wise? I think so too.

Need to go back to the real wall who'll not crumble on me. Who knows exactly how to build me up and knows exactly what He wants me to be. A wall who is SURE of what He is doing and not just leading me around the bush.

Holiday has been...slow. I mean the time passes fast, work progress slow. And I have my WHOLE next week fully booked. So really, I don't know if I can finish my work. Doing bits by bits but tonight I have to finish something and I got it...50% done.

Tomorrow more work to settle. All my 'plans' are re-arranged so that I can finish more work in a day. Cross fingers that everything works well. I really want to hang out next week. *kill all lazy bugs*

Anyways, got my sis to cut my hair two days ago. When she was done, she said, uh-oh. Scare the crap out of me. Ok la, not too bad la. I was traumatized earlier okay?

With specs

And without

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Not a very safe thing to be let roaming on the street. Almost got sister killed because I did not see the car reversing beside me and just zoomed past. Thank God I'm okay. Must remember to pray before I drive next time.

Guess who is going to Hat Yai?

2010-09-05T18:23:00.001+08:00

*wave* Yep, it's me.

Happy gila, cannot sleep, keep smiling, clap hands under the table, brain unconciously planning what to buy and what to do and what to eat, fingers dancing on the keyboard and heart fluttering like butterflies.

That's how happy I am. I probably bugged like lots of people that I want to go and how everyone get to go but me. Everytime I found out someone is going to Hat Yai, I'll go on a texting frenzy and whined to everyone close to me how unfair it is that I was so looking forward to going but everyone is going but me.

So I bet my friends are like so relieved now. =) Excited, can't sleep, can't stop smiling, clapping hands under the table, hearts feels warm and fuzzy. People would have thought I met my prince charming but no, all for the love of Hat Yai, cheap shopping, good food and night market.

fuzzy muzzy lalala... Hot babes travel agency back in action. =)

Me at Clinic Cafe

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By the way, I drove home on Saturday. =) ALONE. *big grin* /proud

Holiday starts

2010-09-03T08:01:00.000+08:00

And it rains this morning. On the first day of my holiday. How lovely is that?

However, there's a few note to self that I must remember.

Do not be lazy.
Do not eat so much.
Do not sleep so much.
Do not sit in front of laptop whole day.
Get a healthy life since I move less at home.

Pray hard that I don't gain back the weight I painstakely lost the past few weeks. Ok la, not exactly painstakely la since I come back every week and got amazed that I lost some weight. But still, it's so much easier to put back on all the weight that losing it.

Note to self, when I start working, I MUST JOIN GYM.

First week will be spent finishing up my work so that the second week of holiday I can spend it hanging out with friends. *tap fingers on the table* Waiting for someone to come back. =) You know who you are so get your butt back soon or we'll go out without you! No la, tak sampai hati. Heh, we think of you 24/7 okay? Excited with plans so win, come back quick.

Maybe, it's not so bad

2010-08-31T22:06:00.000+08:00

after getting it out. =)

Ok fine. I didn't exactly let it out, but it felt like I did. Does that count?

It was a good day.

Happy Independence Day.

<3 the island girl

It's back

2010-08-28T10:18:00.000+08:00

Do not trust me to go to the market (or anywhere at all) without coming back with something.

I thought I killed those shopping bugs but they are still lingering around, waiting for the right time to reappear.

T_T I bought clothes in Tesco, I bought shoes in the market. Seriously, I can buy wherever I go.

Need to stop this or I will have to find a job. Or get a rich husband. I think the former is easier.

Gonna label it as things I should remember lest I forget. One day, if I'm like super poor or something, I'm gonna look back at this and say, "Serve you right Ping!!".

But I love my shoe. /shy. *wave to shoe*

It's complicated

2010-08-26T20:57:00.000+08:00

How now brown cow?

Getting more and more complicated. Need to untangle this or I myself will get caught in there too.

It was just an innocent crush. What did I get myself into again?

God of my dry bones

2010-08-25T00:07:00.001+08:00

There are times I felt that I'm so wounded, so scarred, it's impossible to be healed again.

And God is telling me again and again, nothing is impossible for Him.

I told myself it's impossible for me to tear down my wall, just to let people trample all over me, take advantage of me and then leave me to clear the mess.

It has happened for way too many times, one can't help but to think, aiya, impossible one la.

Whack my head for thinking that. =) God will heal. God knows our pains, He knows. Someone once told me, Ping, stop running away. Stop living in denial. Stop making yourself believe that you are okay when you are not.

I guess today is one of those days, I really am tired of running away, of hiding myself, of telling myself it's impossible. It's one of those days I believe that God can heal me. That He can bring back life to my dry bones, even when people have suck out every single living cells in it.

I thought I know what I was doing

2010-08-23T15:03:00.003+08:00

Maybe I don't. I don't know anymore.

It's getting harder to read minds, not that I can in the first place.

Seems like all of us are reading it wrongly.

I'm tired of this guessing game.

Pulling out. It is too deep, I don't think I can do it.

Or maybe I'm just tired today.

*hide in the room (in my heart cause I have a freaking class now).

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*bang head on the wall*

Ok, emo moments over. =) Chirpy Ping is back.

明知我爱你 MV - 龚芝怡 Serene Koong

2010-08-22T00:12:00.002+08:00

And it's never easy. Loving this song now. If only... Nevermind.

Welcome home

2010-08-21T00:02:00.001+08:00

*breathes* Yep. The smell of home.

Finally home, to roll on springy bed and watch television. And download emo chinese love songs.

I'm home. Saw Charlie the bug, yep, totally home.

=)

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I really hope you know what you are doing. /pats

From awesome

2010-08-20T09:22:00.000+08:00

There are moments in our lives when we find ourselves at a crossroads.

Afraid. Confused. Without a road map.

The choices we make in those moments can define the rest of our days.

Of course, when faced with the unknown, most of us prefer to turn around and go back.

But once in a while people push on to something better.

Something found just beyond the pain of going at it alone.

And just beyond the bravery and courage it takes to let someone in.

Or to give someone a second chance.

Something beyond the quiet persistence of a dream.

Because it's only when you're tested, that you truly discover who you are.

And it's only when you're tested, that you discover who you can be.

The person you want to be does exist.

Somewhere on the other side of hard work and faith and belief

.... and beyond the heartache and fear of what lies ahead.

By Peyton Sawyer

To Awesome.

♥ + *hugs*

Wall up

2010-08-19T08:44:00.003+08:00

Had this great short talk with a friend and YES! Need my wall up.

I guess lately I've been thinking of installing a window, just to see how's the world outside after 4 years of carefully putting up brick by brick, layers and layers of cement.

Even thinking of installing a door to welcome people in. But I installed a window for people to look in.

And I'm feeling insecure now. Got myself some brick and slowly putting them back.

Am I ready for people to come in and mess up my house again?

Is this person a hygienic person who'll clean up his own mess or not mess up my place?

Is he even willing to come in and have a seat? I don't know. And Ping Ping hates uncertainties.

Uncertainties top in her hate list.

*slowly drawing herself out* kthxbye.

Remind self :

You were once a strong wall that I lean on whenever I feel weak. I relied on you to boost my confidence, to acknowledge my existence and to support me. I relied on you so much that whenever something happened, I will run to you for support. Then one day, without warnings or signs or whatsoever, you walked away and I fall hard. I fell so hard, I couldn't stand up on my own. It took me courage, strength and determination to slowly find myself back and stood proudly on my own two feet. I told myself that I will not lean completely on a wall ever again. I've been more cautious on the steps I take, the walls I put my hands on and the road I choose. Even if you look like a strong wall once again, ~~I swear~~ I will never lay my hands on you.

May 2007

Found a better wall to lean on ever since. A wall that will not crumble on me, a wall that will stay firm.

ps: Pardon me for swearing at that time. I was a young girl =P

Dreaming much?

2010-08-18T16:12:00.001+08:00

One of those dreams that you do not want to wake up.

Or perhaps I'm just tired.

Sometimes I wish this dream is real. It feels real to me. Some is saying that it's not a dream, some is saying, don't put your hopes high.

Well, if dream is the best I can get, I shall treasure and hold on to that.

Each time I feel that I'm happily floating in the air, I'll get snap back to reality.

Welcome home, they say. Welcome home.

ps: On the contrary, I'm HAPPY to go home. Away from home for.......2 weeks *hide* don't throw rocks at me, look at their poor lil face, it hurts them as much as it hurts me.

Home + Family = ♥

Steamboat craving satisfied

2010-08-17T01:54:00.000+08:00

*rubs tummy* chicken ball overdose.

Laughter overdose.

Fear overdose (of guards that will ronda bangunan).

Sleep deprived.

But still, ♥.

It was random, but it happened. For once.

Now I got something crazy that I've done in uni life that I can fill in the blanks.

Thanks for the four other awesome people who joined me in this craze.

Stop misleading me

2010-08-15T18:29:00.001+08:00

It kills inside when that someone you secretly likes mislead you with 1001 things.

And you really want to crawl into his/her mind to find out what's really running inside there.

Knowing very well that you'll never be able to do that, it kills, slowly but surely.

And he/she goes on to mislead you.

If you don't mean it, stop it. Really. We appreciate that.

Life is a neverending learning process

2010-08-15T00:28:00.000+08:00

Learnt today that guys will always be guys and no matter how close you are with them, you just cannot treat them like they are your girl friends. You need to be careful of what you say, what you do and how close you are with them.

We are still living in the era where it's not okay for a girl and a guy be good buddies without getting stares and whispers from people, where a girl and a guy are impossible to be JUST friends.

Sometimes it's so tiring living according to what people think and what people say. But this is life. Life is not just about us. Life includes many other people in it and so, I guess, it's okay if we feel restricted. We are not living on our own sweet little island.

Note to self, talk less to guys, it saves lots of troubles.

Raindrops keep falling on my head

2010-08-13T22:42:00.000+08:00

2nd week of not being a PBSM.

=) Friend has been bugging me and asking me why I'm still here. I actually got things to do. Yup, Ping Ping actually chooses to stay here and not go back. Ok la, probably part of the reason is that I'm afraid of driving home la.

Afternoon was emo hour. Got over it and now I'm bubbly and jumpy again. Can't wait to camwhore tomorrow =)

Been raining like mad since yesterday night. And my bed got wet again. *drags bed away from window* I DID NOT WET MY BED K? The rain did. I is a good girl with strong bladder.

Have to be awake at 6am tomorrow morning. *crawls to bed* Nice weather to sleep in too. *tuck self into bed*

Night night.

Crushed

2010-08-13T15:34:00.000+08:00

One day I'm so hopeful about life, so positive about everything

and suddenly, the next day, I'm on the verge of crying and telling myself I'm good for nothing and useless.

It's all about self-confidence. I allow people to define me. I allow people to tell me if I'm pretty or ugly, smart or stupid, capable or incapable. I allow people to go into my brain and tell me nasty things.

I am easily discourage, hard to encourage. Because I never believe in myself. I miss Uncle Sunny. I miss someone telling me I'm smart even when I don't feel I am.

Time to turn to the BIG MAN up there, He knows why He create me and I'm not created out of accident or out of pure fun. I was created because He knows what's my purpose. He enables me to do things. The moment I tell myself I cannot do it, I'm telling people and myself that God is not able to guide me to do it.

*wipes tears* =)

Perhaps

2010-08-12T18:39:00.000+08:00

Just maybe,

There's someone out there who is the only exception for me.

Who gives me enough courage to risk it again.

To risk getting hurt, to risk being vulnerable.

Maybe God IS writing the best love story for me.

It feels great to feel hopeful for once.

To have hope for things instead of brushing off any hope and positive vibes people keep trying to inject into my life.

To doubt what people say and think of the most negative aspect of every single positive thing said.

Maybe it's time to stop torturing myself like this.

Maybe I am good for something too. God DID create me so I guess I must be good for something that He took the trouble to create me, right?

=)

I learnt

2010-08-11T18:19:00.000+08:00

Today I learnt,

not to pour water down the little drain cause it might wet people's clothes.

T_T I'm sorry. I did not mean to do it. *beat hand*

Driving

2010-08-09T22:14:00.002+08:00

brings out the crazy side of me.

People are scared. So to scare people, I just have to fetch them. =)

That sounds fun. Okay then. =P

Cheeky mode OFF, Nostalgic mode ON.

Miss those days when I'll sit in the car with my mum and she'll drive me to school or anywhere, and we'll sing in the car as we have no radio.

"Darling you can count on me
'Til the sun dries up the sea
Until then I'll always be
Devoted to you

I'll be yours through endless time
I'll adore your charms sublime
Guess by now you know that I'm
Devoted to you

I'll never hurt you I'll never lie
I'll never be untrue
I'll never give you reason to cry
I'd be unhappy if you were blue

Through the years my love will grow
Like a river it will flow
It can't die because i"m so
Devoted to you"

I wish I can faster master the art of driving and drive my mum around. And sing this with her. And if by God's will do I get married and have kids, I want to sing this song with them in the car. I love my mummy.

ps: Miss having mummy making me sing my Annie's song. ♥

Mask down

2010-08-08T17:59:00.003+08:00

I'm stressed and scared. I think I've subject myself too much to people's opinions and criticisms. I know all that matters is God but it's so hard to not be bothered of what people will think. Or if it's not good enough, what will people think? Will people think I'm not prepared? Will people think I did not put my best?

Wait a minute. Count the number of times I mention the word 'people' and the number of times I mention 'God'. I need to get myself together and pray that God will guide me to plan this. It's supposed to be a fun outing where we gather God's people together and welcome them to our PKA family but now it's stressing me out. Am I losing the point here?

I don't know. =( All I know is that I don't enjoy it as much now. Need to find back my purpose of doing all these.

Mask up again. It's tiring but it's easier.

these girls are ♥

2010-08-07T11:08:00.001+08:00

What will life be if I've not met them? Well, I wouldn't want to know the answer.

♥

Dreaming of our prince charming. I think mine is kinda cute, Diana's is a bit scary and June's just plain boring. =P Look at our expression. It's either I act best or their prince charming is not really charming after all. =P

My friends are so cute, I ♥ them. =)

Our one and only group picture but major ♥

Why do we always end up with same face? But ♥

Look at my greedy face. And Diana's super cute busuk face. =) *busuk face means face you do when you smell something funny. Not her face busuk. She very wangi one*

I do sad face. They say cute. Haih, even my students say cute. I guess I shall just be garang.

The art of camwhoring is that you can make yourself look as though you are not camwhoring.

The main reason we gather. Side reason is WE MISS EVERYONE!!

And June has been photobombing me the entire night. First with the penguin tissue, now with her own face.

I was telling my friend that these friends I know here is MUCH different from anyone else I've met in uni. Apart from them (except my family), there's is no one I can wrap my arms around or cling onto throughout the whole mall and still feel it's okay doing so. You know who you are. I ♥ the fact that we will automatically open up space for each other to slide our hands through our arms to walk arms in arms. And laugh at one another's joke and lameness and then create more. Even if we've not met for a long time, this still remains.

Thank you girls for the great day out. I needed it. It's just different to be out with you girls.

And the ones who are enjoying in UK, COME BACK QUICK. And the one in Sabah, waiting for you to come back for Raya!!! And the one in KL, come back or we'll forget you =P

♥ Ping Ping

ps: It's so funny when Diana said all of you were afraid of me back in high school cause I was always emo-nemo and garang-garang and I sang to her Amazing Grace with super terrible voice to annoy her. But she's not annoyed. I think I need to do it to Win. kekeke.

Mood swings

2010-08-07T10:49:00.000+08:00

Raining heavily outside. Best to sleep in and just do nothing but roll on the bed. Had a terrible week I would say. I would love to blame it on PMS (which could be partially true) but I think deep down inside, I know it's me. It's just me. I guess it's easy to go out and meet people when you do it out of your free time and hard to go out and meet people knowing that it's a duty.

I missed being the carefree person who'll visit people and walk around USM like it's a mall. I really wish the passion will come back and not hide behind my tasks and responsibilities. I'm glad to have friends around me to pull me up when I'm down though.

Anyways, I have been BUSY BUSY BUSY, so much so that my roommates and neighbours started telling me that it's so hard to see me in my room nowadays.

I wished I can stay in too and not go out to see people. But it's my last year and there's a lot of things I need to do. I enjoyed my time being around my friends but I guess deep down, I need alone time. I need time that I can do things at my own pace, walk at my own pace and just be carefree. Has been a long time since I last admire the beauty of God's creation while walking to class. I guess that's what I need instead of running to one place to another and rushing to settle one thing after another.

And....I can finally blog!!!

I feel loved

2010-08-04T00:14:00.000+08:00

and you know who you are. =) On days like this, one just can't continue to wallow in self-pity and hate self for anything at all because there's so many other people loving you and being there for you.

Above all, He had it worst but He still did it for me, why can't I do the same?

It's always a bliss to be in His arms.

Hi Korea

2010-07-31T23:14:00.000+08:00

Just want to say, it's cool to be Korean. You can eat all you want since it won't show your tummy anyway. Hides my Legions well.

If you can't get a korean traditional costume, I guess you can always get a HUGE fan to hide your tummy then.

=) Need to seriously start exercising. Next week. T_T

Reality sets in

2010-07-27T23:45:00.000+08:00

Lots of work.
Lots of responsibilities.
Lots of deadlines.
Lots of pressure.
Lots of energy drawn out.

Even I couldn't take it anymore.

Could be PMS, could be lil mood swings, could be stress, could be anything really. Maybe just emo season?

But I think I need a good cry. At least now, today. I will be okay tomorrow. I'm only emo in my room. In person, I'm usually quite chirpy and noisy and bubbly. Maybe that's why Grandma Eu Pui once told me 'It's okay to be not okay'. I've always wanted to show that I am okay because I hate people asking me why I am not okay. I don't like to appear weak. I want people to think that I can do fine even if I do it alone.

Maybe I do need to stop pretending. I do need to stop putting up a tough face. Like even the clouds are going to fall on me, I can still be okay.

If I am not okay in front of you, that's because I decided that I can be not okay in front of you and you are not going to judge me. I will really appreciate it if you don't ask me about this. =) I just need a space to vent out my emptiness.

NEED.TO.REDUCE.EMO.POSTS.

Maybe I am not as okay as I pretend to be.

When I smile, maybe I was just trying to avoid questions.

ps: It might be workload. It's never fun to look at my to-do list.

A bowl of porridge

2010-07-19T20:37:00.000+08:00

The more you hope it won't happen, the higher chances it will.

That's how things work. You hope you won't bump into people in the pantry while washing your pot? Good, cause you'll end up bumping into 5. That's the most you've ever bumped into in 3 years of staying there.

Ok, I only got one example.

=) I'm out.

Goodbye

2010-07-14T23:02:00.000+08:00

All these while, you've showed me that you can make me feel beautiful, even on days I felt like crap.

You complement me. I don't know if I can find another that's as perfect as you. I loved you and when you decided to end this, I decided that you have your rights to choose what you want. I let you go.

They said that if it's true love, you'll only let go when you've done everything you can to keep it. The moment I laid my eyes on you that day, I knew, I've done my best but my best is just not good enough. The look in your eyes, I knew, there's no way it will be the same again. It'll never be the same.

You've changed. You've made your choice. I let you go. Even though deep down inside, I wished there's a second chance.

I loved you and I will treasure all the time we spent together.

GOODBYE

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My sunnies

That keeps my eyes from glaring sunlight.

And my face from being too big.

The moment I look into your ~~eyes~~ lense, I know it'll never be the same.

You made me felt cool, complete, you made me felt me.

Now that you've left.

I got myself another one. =P

Update picture on weekends.

Final year

2010-07-14T16:55:00.000+08:00

Insane!! I am a final year student!!! It's crazy.

Did a lot the previous holiday.
- Attended camp
- Worked for the first time
- Went for planning retreat
- Retracted application to Mexico
- Translated law text- real one
- Volunteered in Door of Hope
- Volunteered for Heritage TreaShaw Hunt
- Shopped - a lot
- Camwhored- a lot too
- Lost 3 kg and gained 2kg back T_T
- Came back to uni - wrestled with timetable, classes, commitments, fun time.

Looks like it's gonna be a great final year. I'm beginning to miss USM. Each time I walk pass DK Foyer, I'm walking pass as a 3rd year. It felt like it was just yesterday when I walked through this place, looking lost and now I'm in my 3rd year? I will definitely miss USM when I leave. Gonna enjoy each moment I have here now. =)

Don't get me started on my baby lizard story or you people are gonna call me drama queen and chicken again. It was drama alright?

Islands in Malaysia

2010-07-09T10:59:00.000+08:00

Was googling for islands in Malaysia to plan for our end year trip or graduation trip with the Emmoes when the UK ones come back after they finish their studies. I was happily browsing through until I saw...

O.O PULAU TIKUS INI PENANG ALSO KIRA ISLAND? It's market la sayang. I was cheated for years that Pulau Tikus is a fun holiday place so I know ok? Cartoon betul, got the word Pulau means island already la?

Google frenzy

2010-07-08T12:57:00.000+08:00

I was talking to my awesomest friend, Rou En on MSN about Paul the Octupus. I was telling her that they are so mean. Dahlah they themselves want to use him to predict the result, now that he got it right, they want to make him paella. And he has a name okay? How can they eat him?

Then I urged her to go google him up as I find him rather scary.

ch.ng.ping.ping: *yawn* says:

u go google and see
a bit scary to me
hehee

rouen says:
so many things about him
aiyo, famous than us

ch.ng.ping.ping: *yawn* says:
hahahaha
go google ur name
see got or not
u more famous
u got uni, got hospital all
hehhee...i tak famous langsung

rouen says:
hahahha, i try that last time
ya, i'm part of france n all
but that's not the real me

ch.ng.ping.ping: *yawn* says:
budak femes
rouen says:
you also famous,
ping ping is the world's shortest man

ch.ng.ping.ping: *yawn* says:
serious?
T_T

rouen says:
hahahaha, can't stop myself from laughing

ch.ng.ping.ping: *yawn* says:
OF ALL THINGS
i need to blog this
2 minutes
hahahah

Lesson #1: Don't simply google your name because you might get a shocking discovery - which might not be always pleasant.

Lesson #2: Do not name your son Ping Ping. It's a freaking GIRL'S NAME! I don't care if I've met a few guys named Ping Ping. They got girlish name. *stubborn*

Lesson #3: There's no lesson #3. I'm too sad to even talk now /dramamodeON. How can Ping Ping be the world's shortest man? Short is bad enough. WORLD'S SHORTEST OKAY?

Love

2010-06-30T01:18:00.000+08:00

It's 1.11am now I don't bother to edit or rearrange my pictures. Where did the easy-to-arrange-pictures in blogspot go? It's driving me crazy to pull it here and there. Anyways, took pictures for The Manni-Queen and it's so much more fun now since I do full dress-up session with make up and all. And we take with face shots now. <3 Something I won't do if I'm not doing The Manni-Queen. Shy ma take full pic (cause cannot camwhore, need people to take for me)

Love this top. Big and flowy, nice to hide my tummy :P

I love this shot. But sis thinks the top is too adult for me. :( Makes me look old.

Love this so much I have to be the first customer. =P\

Love Emmoes, though half left, still love. <3 =) I can do so many insane things esp camwhoring with you girls around. No weird stares or mocking because we are the same. This big warm circle where I feel belong. Love you girls lots lots lots lots. =)

Currently doing translation still and staying up has been a ritual to me. Need to get it done so that I can at least enjoy the last few days or at least first week of uni. I doubt so but oh well, don't say NO. Say Yes all the time then perhaps, it'll happen. =)

Blogging mojo is not really back yet.

You know what kills the makan spirit?

2010-06-26T21:35:00.000+08:00

Wearing a skirt that was quite loose on you few weeks back to find it so much tighter already.

CRAP~ Shouldn't have pulled out that skirt. No proper dinner tonight.

Why is this happening to me???!!! Just a few weeks okay? Took me so long to lose them. They just can't bear to part with me I guess.

*sleep early*

Blessing in disguise

2010-06-22T12:44:00.000+08:00

One of those days I'm glad

that I'm staying in Penang and not KL (or any other place where shopping is insanely awesome)

and that I'm size 14 and not size 6.

... pardon me, pocket running dry. If I was any of the above (or both), I think I'd be owing people lots of money.